Oh, I guess it is time to talk about something good, but also hard. It’s all about how blogging has changed me.

How blogging has changed your thinking?

To be honest, writing in a blog has changed me tremendously. More than I ever thought would be possible, in very good ways. It has helped my communication skills improve and thanks to the other blogs I follow – that has helped me to know about other’s perspective and that is always a great tool in teaching in my book. I’m so grateful for this blogging community!

However, I don’t know for how long I will continue to do this. The well is dried up and my blog consists now of only the blogging challenges I partake in. I find it super hard to write anything of my own lately and I don’t know when it will stop. Or improve, is perhaps a better thing to say.

I have plans for my future

And they’ve all gone awry. I had huge hopes for this special thing I might have participated in earlier this spring, but at the last minute it was cancelled with no turning back and through that experience, my whole world has turned upside down in both the best ways and worst ways possible. I’m both grateful, but also I feel like a total failure and it will take time, a lot of time until I’m through this.

I would love to write about it all. Tell you every single detail and throwing the whole privacy thing in the garbage disposal, but I can’t. I’d rather shut the blog down to be honest and try again some other time.

I’m doing other project in my spare time as well, but they are all not working well and I feel pretty stressed and there’s just too much crap going on.

Thoughts I had when I started this blog

First of all I thought it was gonna be the easiest thing ever, getting hundreds of subscribers easily, but that has proven to be extremely difficult. I have a loyal case of followers that often leave comments and I’m super grateful for you ❤️. Truly.

I personally think that running this blog on top of all of my other projects I have in my spare time and those I plan to do in the future will be too much. I will close down this blog sometime, but I don’t know when. I still need this place and so I will be here most likely through out the year. It all depends on what’s gonna happen in my life during the summer and fall.

I seriously hope I’ll get a higher income and some professional help to guide me straight and I have a hight chance of that, and that has to come first.

Me and the BF are also talking about the future a lot, about both good and bad things. The good stuff are about more pets of course. We’re thinking of getting another dog into the household. Not this year, though – but most likely next year.

The bad, I’ll leave out to respect his privacy.

The second thing that I thought of when I started this blog was how to write safely and without worry and that’s at least something I do, but I also feel extremely “bad” for being too private or something. I feel like I’m lying, both to you and to myself and that’s a shitty feeling to have.

Conclusion.

Well, I do hope that you’ll stick with me until I’m no longer here. I’ll try and write as much as possible until I say goodbye and hopefully I will change my mind and I’ll keep going with this blog for years and years. I have no idea what will happen, but I need a break. Not a pause, but a break from the shittiness that is life. If all goes well (which it never does in my opinion), it will get better but after some huge struggles and some bad challenges.

And I hope you’ll be there for all of it.

Sunday Poser # 235- Change brought on by blogging