In this life, there’s a lot of waiting for shit to happen, and it usually never does. If it somehow actually does, it usually turns out it’s not that great or it goes wrong pretty fast and we’re back to square one.

My life is a mess, but you knew that, right?

Well at least you knew it if you’re an avid reader of this blog. I have mentioned it often since starting and right now and for a few months back, I’ve been in a sort of limbo just waiting for shit to turn around.

I’m positive though, that this time around – if it actually does get better, it will go boom, but in a really good way!

Sort of like going from eating noodles each day to eating lobster, and probably never have to worry about a thing ever again. Well, that’s probably impossible because no matter what we all have a life and it tends to go up and down like a roller coaster. And life is messy even if you’re filthy rich or dirt poor.

Not that I’m ever gonna be filthy rich, but if I at least get a better job that I also like doing, I’m gonna feel like I am rich and getting to buy the stuff I want will be easier than today. Because today I can’t afford much at all. Even if I’d get a low paying job, I’ll probably triple my income at the moment, and with a huge bump in salary and overall income, the possibilities are endless!

I’m a spiritual person and a little bird has told me that this summer is going to be a game changer in so many ways, and I do hope that is right. I have so many plans for the future, and especially for next year and I could use a huge break and get some positive shit in my life right about now. After all the years I’ve struggled to get a decent job and a better income, it should be my time to shine.

Otherwise, why am I alive? It seems so pointless to never get the life you deserve if you’re hardworking and doing your best and never getting any goals completed. I’ve been in a rut all my adult life and it’s time to change that, but I am gonna need the universe help me thinks because I’ve been trying on my own and it does not work.

No worries about my health though. Apart from an incident a few weeks ago, I’m doing fine and I am very happy at the moment.

Now I just hope that volcano can erupt and shower me with opportunities.

Thanks, Kevin for this NTT ❤️